My love My life ... I miss you a lot

Please ignore my grammar i am not a good writer  :)

Chapter One 

Our love story started long before, bachha and i met each other.

And i believe many love story might start this way only. The most wonderful thing which happened to me till today is she which i have told her many a times, to be really frank even i don't know what love is and i believe even today i am not sure of it but, if thinking of a person day and night, dreaming of her every day, hoping to see her every single moment, doing anything which can bring a smile on her face is love then at last i believe yes i am also in love. 

The first time (April 11, Thursday) we talked was on face book, we met (virtually) while preparing for CAT GD/PI, both of us was waiting to get into one of the prestigious MBA College in INDIA. She was a fresher and I had the work-ex one and half year, we started talking on all the MBA stuff and how things is are on both side, there was hardly a single day in between when i never pinged her, we used to talk in night only. 

In between all this i had many interviews I use to travel to different cities, but i make sure that i am always in touch with her, whether i was in train or in my village where we hardly have electricity i manage to ping her and talk to her whenever she is free. 

Things was going good and one day our dream of studying in one of the prestigious college came true first for her one the top IIM and then for me NITIE, i was satisfied with what i got, i never hope for big so i was fine with that, however i also had the same call but not fortunate enough to study with her, but i was happy that her dream of studying in one of the IIM came true. 

With the passing time a day came when she need to leave her home to start her new journey, as she used to share her feelings by that time she told me, she is half excited and half worried, she joined her college in June and the next month i joined NITIE in july. By that time i already proposed her twice and got rejected both the time.

On july 18th i called her in night i again proposed her, told her how much i love her, as i told i don’t know what force was that which always used to drag me to her and i started thinking of her 24/7, that night we talked till 5 she had the class early in the morning, to my surprise she excepted my proposal. :) :)

Chapter 2

The next morning 19th July Friday was the special day for me because i had my love my life with me, it was really hard for me to believe that my love my life was with me, we used to talk whole night in starting i started loving everything around me, i don't know what was that but the feeling i used to get talking to her was totally different, slowly and slowly i was just going closer and closer to her. 

She used to tell that she feel not belonging to that place just because of the conditions and circumstances, i always used to motivate her and give strength to her to live the dream she wanted to live, it feels that she was also very happy in in the relationship she also confessed it was hard for her to survive there if she was not having my support to motivate her. But in all she deserves to be there that what i know and i used to tell her. 

Like in every relationship things are never smooth and especially in longer distance it is never easy. But I always had the believe my relation with her is totally different from the people who commit. Whenever I tell her how much I love her, her next words always make my day, I love you more than what you do. We used to fight on silly things, but most important the next morning both forget what happened last night and start things in new manner.  With time my love for her was just keep growing, I thought some where she also understands this.

There was hard time also in our relationship when things was against her in her college, I would not like to mention what it was but yes I make sure that the next day when she opens her eyes I am standing with her to support her, I took the early flight and reached IIM to support her, she was also excited to meet for the first time.

  

Chapter 3

It was September when I saw her for the first time, I can never forget that moment when I saw her for the first time, I had no words to tell what I feel for her, I thought of hugging her there only but I controlled myself, it was my first time I never knew what a girl like and dislike. We went to her room she told what happened we chatted. My first ever kiss happened that day. We enjoyed each other’s company my feelings were getting more and stronger for her. Things went the way I wanted I stayed there for  3-4 days , don’t forget I am also doing MBA I bunked my classes but I never had the regret for that I had my love with me.  Before I was living the worst of the condition which worried her in her college, its intensity decreased and so it was easier for me to say bye to her and leave.

I left came back things got normal again life started moving it was, but still she was worried with her things in her college, I can never see her worried but staying in Mumbai I cannot do anything for her except supporting her. The worst of the thing happened to her I was not there she was totally down with that, I was helpless. I got worried, told her don’t worry things will be fine but I was also worried. But no one can do anything at that point of time..

Just after the first time we met I again went there to meet her, again I took the flight, I knew it she will be angry to know I used flight to be there, but in all I just wanted to be with her. I always had the feeling she will be happy to see me with her and she want to be with me. She always told me I miss you whenever there some party or event I always want to be with me in such events, just to fulfill what she always dream of I was in her campus on event day. I can see how she was feeling <3.

This time I was there with her more than 6 days, those moments i can never ever forget, how I can my love my life was with me. This time it was harder for me to leave her but at last I had to because I already bunked more classes. I came back our bonding got stronger. After coming back the talks on cell decreased I started engaging in different stuff, but she had this complain I am changing I don’t talk to her the manner I used to , i said fine and again I devoted all y time to her and my studies nothing else. I used to wake her up all the time which I really liked that I am listening her voice in the morning. But the main reason, I was always worried that if she misses any of the lecture than I will feel guilty why didn't I woke her up, I can’t see anything bad happening to her.I can never see her crying in my life, it happened twice or thrice that she cried, I really tell u i always curse myself why didn't I not converted my IIM call. 

Chapter 4

I was wrong that my relationship was not like the other ones, i always had the feeling my connection with her is totally different from the others, because for both of us this was the first relationship, for me in 24 years and for her in 23 years, you can think a special connection need to be there to bring such two person together, i don't deny that i never talked to with girls but yes i never got committed, love happens for once and it happened with her.

Going through what was happening between us was really not good, now things was turning she was having less time to talk, and i was totally involved i needed time, i know how hectic schedule she had still she managed to talk to me. In all this we always knew, that we love each other a lot and taking care of each other whenever needed.

And one more person who was always in this story was his brother, whenever and whatever be the reason, we used to fight, i or she always have a habit of telling him, i tell you he is very generous and kind to listen to it. I know how often i bother him, but i don't have any option, whenever we have fight she won’t listen to me, and i need someone to whom i can tell what i am going through. He always said i will listen to you both, but will not pass judgment or make perception; he just listens to our problems. He is the person i think to whom she must have shared everything. Thank you sir for being with her always ...

It was September and things were like it was before, last time i met her was in October, but yes we used to have video chat. Every time on video chat she looks to cute <3, i really wished to hug her on video itself, however she used to hug the laptop ;). I just loved every single moment i used to pass with her, her smiling face her voice everything. I always told her no man will ever love you like i do, i also knew that she loves me more than i do.

October started she had summer placements happening in her campus, mine started far before her, her started in mid of this month, she was excited, even i was my grads was not like her, nor i was a studios guy in past, but yes i knew she is going to rock. Placements started things was not moving like we thought of, she hardly had any shortlist, she was down i was worried no one can do anything. The first shortlist she got from coca-cola i was happy. finally she got something to prove herself, unfortunately nothing happened, she was worried on 3 or 4 day she called me, i want to sign out from the process, if anything can happen from outside do try. I convinced her not signing out, next moment i started talking to my contacts. But i always had a confident on her and faith she will do it, which i never shown to her. At the end of the day she gave me the good news she got placed :) :).

Chapter 5 

The worst ever month in our relationship was about to start, it was November. Diwali was on 3rd and we had vacation of 10 days i decided to leave on 1st. This was the first time in 5 month i will stay with my parents for more than, 6-7 days, i was happy. I left on 1st i knew it, now the talks between me and bachha are going to decrease. She was feeling something weird, she called me, told me she is not feeling good. She had the feeling i will leave her, i made her understand, i am not going anywhere, for the first time she was feeling insecure, which i used to be. She asked me to tell my parents as soon as possible which i wanted to tell them late, she given me 31st DEC as the last date.

I reached my home in night mom open the door, i immediately i went to my room and called her. i can’t see her thinking like this, she was still feeling the same behaving bit unusual, i asked her what she is feeling. she told everything even said i am keeping relationship status on Facebook, i never wanted to see her falling in problem her father was on Facebook, and i don't wanted him to know things like this. But she was thinking something different, night passed and things got normal. 

I was wrong here also that things are normal now, i don't know what happened to her but now on per day basis something happens which drag us to argument, which i wanted to avoid. i tried and told her lets live a simple life no more fights, being at my home again i got the habit of talking to her, 3-4 day passed like this, she had her quizzes form 6th Nov and midterm from 8th . She got the reason to get busy; i was at my home now i wanted to talk to her. She was only able to devotee 1-2 hour in night. I don't know why but know i started feeling like she was in starting. 

Her exams got over on 12th she was all set and excited to leave for home, from inside i wanted to see her but my happiness was in her happiness, she left for her home that day. That day was the worst ever day of our relationship, it was around 8 and the train was all about to leave, i called her asked her to talk, she refused i asked her the reason she had the valid reason, her cell battery was low. If i wanted i would have ignored all that on that moment but i forced her to talk, according to her promise. But she refused she switched of her cell, i had her friends number i called her, again she refused to talk, my frustration of all time was high, or i can say when time is wrong things happen like this only. Neither she was understanding me nor i was, in between i started talking like the most immature guy on this earth all type of rubbish things, i told her i will also reach her place with her ( the biggest mistake ever i made :( ). All i wanted was to talk to her, i was missing her, i told her, but since she was not listening i must have understood, but no when something is decided to happen it will happen, i was messing everything slowly and slowly and after some time i stopped.

Next day i called her, in between my class she didn't pick my call, i called her again after my lecture, this time she picked the call, and she was very angry, more then ever she refused to talk to me ever, she said its all over between us, i was shocked, this time again i got angry, my anger is some thing which dra

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